I’m Tom and I live in London.
I’m pretty laid back, but one thing’s always been a bit out of kilter. I get stressed out – to the point of blind panic – by specific sounds.
I’ve always reacted to this sensitivity in different ways. When I hear one of these ‘trigger sounds’ I usually go quiet and sit there stewing (my head screaming).
Other times it’s so bad I have to find some way to leave the room.
What kind of sounds?
I’m not talking about cat’s nails down a blackboard (everyone hates that).
It’s not ‘obviously’ irritating sounds either. Like neighbours playing loud music at 5am… or people taking phone calls on public transport. Again, those are sounds that annoy everyone.
This is an aversion or allergy to certain, specific sounds that people make.
It’s the sound of someone smacking their lips when eating. It’s sighing… coughing… sniffing. Pen clicking… rustling a plastic wrapper – the list goes on.
When I was a child I assumed everyone had this, but over the years I realised it just didn’t effect them in the same way as me (if at all).
It was “my problem” and I decided I just had a heightened sensitivity to sound and a quick temper.
But in 2014 I stumbled upon people on forums talking about the same thing…
And at around the same time a friend of mine, a PhD student, happened to send me a link about misophonia.
It was then that I had the lightbulb moment. This is a REAL condition and it’s called misophonia
It’s a great word, misophonia.
It sounds like a forgotten goodness of the moon… a higher state of consciousness… the winner of a beauty pageant. The reality is less majestic and it actually translates as ‘hatred of sound’.
There’s very little information about misophonia out there and there are relatively few studies. I’m keen to find out if those of us who suffer from it share different traits, maybe even positive ones as well.
This website is for misophonia sufferers. It’s a free, shared resource where we can help each other and find out more about the disorder.
I also want it to be somewhere where we can educate the general public.
Until recently people thought synaesthesia was a delusion. Now that it’s recognised, the stigma has gone and more studies are being done.
Misophonia deserves the same recognition and attention.
You can read more about my story here.
Hi! I have been concerned that I have Misophonia. I am very happy that I came across your website because it’s nice to know that there are other people out there that want to SCREAM when they hear a ‘trigger noise’. Sounds that I hate is mostly people chewing, swallowing and clearing their throat. For me, it’s got to the point where I have to step out of the classroom because I can’t focus on what I’m doing. I still haven’t told close friends about how much I hate noises. Although my family does know that I hate the sound of chewing, they just don’t know how bad it is. I can’t even sit at the dinner table, I am too scared. I don’t know how to tell my friends or family how serious it is. Anyway, I love this website. Lots of good information. Thank You.
Hi Sarah, thank you for your kind words and I really hope some of the info on the site helps. Stay strong and keep your head held high, you can lead a very happy life with misophonia! I actually wrote an article on telling friends and family a little while back which you can see here: http://allergictosound.com/articles/should-you-tell-friends-and-family-that-you-have-misophonia/
Like many others, I’ve had this for ages. It’s funny however, these sounds, sometimes I really like them, which I’ve learnt from ASMR and literally feeling euphoric while listening to these sounds, but sometimes I extremely hate them, and I resort to sometimes even moderate self harm to distract myself. What I understand is that when the situation is in your benefit, then these actions are extremely pleasant. An example is when you’re trying to sleep and this person is giving you personal attention on the ASMR video to try and induce you to sleep. When it is not in your benefit, it has the complete opposite effect, exactly the same kind of sounds, but irritating. For example my flatmates moving around and tapping things quietly at night. What’s also interesting is that I feel it so much more with people I’m closer to, my family for instance. I believe this is related to the whole idea that it is not for your benefit. I love my family to the end of the world, but especially when you’re a teenager, you have arguments with members of your family, many, and after a few of them, you’re going to hear them eating, you’re going to hear them tapping, and that’s what brings the negative link to the sound, and that, at least in my opinion, has stayed with me forever. I am very grateful my family do not eat meals together very often, and we live apart, but that doesn’t mean I don’t love them of course! After discovering this it made me think, haha. Nice to know there are others and I’m not just being an irrational ballsack. Also it will be nice to use this as an excuse to my apparent irrational grumpiness.
Haha, you’re not an irrational ballsack. Thanks for the comment Michael, like you I have both ASMR and misophonia too. It’s fascinating that there’s this crossover between the two conditions for some of us.
I had my lightbulb moment last week after reading an article in the Daily Mail on Misophonia, I have suffered from this since I can remember I just thought I was also being an irrational ballsack!
I have also discovered after reading this excellent website that I have Misokinesia!
Interestingly my adult son has synaesthesia!
Thanks for your lovely comment. You’re not an irrational ballsack either! That’s very interesting that your son has synaesthesia. Too many links to my mind for this to be coincidental.
Wow thank you so much for his article! I have suffered with Misophonia for years, my parents would mock me about it (and push my trigger points) not understanding the affect I felt! As an adult I can manage it but lately due to stress my triggers have made me internally boil! (Especially on public transport)!
Thank you for making a space for those of us sensitive enough to live with this!
I am starting to liken it now to a superhero talent only few of us share!
Thank you for your kind words Bon and a very warm welcome. You’re right, it is a superhero talent!
Good Morning, Tom in London! We are not alone… sad as that is, it is still good to know. In opening statements, ‘About Me’, you wrote about synaesthesia now being recognized as a legitimate concern, following with misophonia should be given the same…
Well, I tapped up another ‘window’, typed in synaesthesia, clicked on the Wikipedia subject line, and scanned the rather extensive writing on the subject. About half way down the page, under ‘types’, I came to Misophonia. Two brief lines suggested Misophonia was thought to be a subset of synaesthesia. I glanced back at descriptions of several other types of synaesthesia and frankly, I don’t get it…
Nowhere in those ‘types’ did I read that any of them caused extreme negative reactions. In fact, under ‘Signs and Symptoms’, it reads that many people with synaesthesia have positive comments about their own experience, up to and including it enhancing their lives. Again, I don’t get it…
I have never, ever, ever, as in never!! heard anyone with Misophonia claim it enhanced their lives. To the contrary, many of us bemoan our lives being greatly hindered, up to and including a sense of hopelessness about it.
In fact, my negative reactions are so strong I have feared I was developing a propensity for psychotic behaviors. My particular sound, that which carries the most significance for me, is whistling. My fear of psychosis is that I want to attack the whistler, rip their face off, stuff a magic marker in their pie hole, scream at them, do whatever it takes to make them stop… now, right now. I have hidden in corners, between book shelves, with my ears plugged with fingers and cloth, while the whistler wandered away. Of course I could go on and on.. (loquacious). But I think you summed it up as well as I have ever heard, perhaps even perfectly. “The Point of Blind Panic”. Hey, this could be our slogan; on T-shirts, bumper stickers, business cards, stationary… thank you for your work… jenn in California.
Hey Jenn, thank you for your comment. I am sorry you feel a sense of hopelessness and I do understand. I hope that by reading some of the articles on the site and looking at the research that’s happening in the field and maybe connecting with others you’ll find inspiration. You make a very good point! There is some debate as to whether synaesthesia are connected in some way (both of them being sensory disorders) and I lean towards those theories myself. I think it’s understandable for us to focus on the negative aspects of the disorder because they’re so immediate and strong and often so overwhelming. However my own personal belief is that are some, less obvious, less visceral aspects that we can embrace. I think many of us have an almost super sensory able to notice small details (I’m not just talking about negative ones relating to sound here), as well as a different perspective and a unique sense of creativity. And I might not be completely mad in this belief! http://allergictosound.com/articles/study-reveals-misophonia-sufferers-are-creative-geniuses/
Thanks . . . came across this through the BT News link and was reading about it earlier on the BBC News . . . wow, you’ve made my day, nay my week . . . have had this for years and years and thought I was just a complete fruitcake (can I say that ?) . . . even shared one of the links with a couple of colleagues to show them that it’s not just me . . . it’s my brain wiring and I’m really not just the miserable (but mostly likeable) b****** they thought I was. Thank you . . . have put this site at the top of my favourites and think it will make for interesting reading this weekend
Thanks Fife Fella! It’s a great pleasure to welcome you. And no, you’re not a miserable b******!
I have FINALLY found someone who understands!!!! I’ve had this issue my entire life. My main trigger sounds are chewing, swallowing, crunching and throat clearing. I also can’t stand it when people suck their teeth (like after a meal to get food from between their teeth) or crack/pop gum.
This condition seems to be getting worse because I have now developed a very strong aversion to certain types of voices. There’s a woman in the adjoining office who is very nice but something about the tonal quality of her voice is like a hot poker straight to my brain. I have to keep my door shut all day and use a white noise machine because the sound makes me feel homicidal. Meanwhile, my co-workers think I’m an overly-sensitive bitch but I keep telling them I honestly can’t help it.
Just knowing there are others out there like me really does help. Thank you!
I have suffered from this for years but over time it has gotten much worse. My cousin and my daughter also have the same problem but only really with mouth noises and chewing. With me it can be anything, clicking, tapping, rustling or often it can just be too many noises in one go. Not great in the car when the radio is on, daughters talking, heaters are on and I’m trying to manouver. Sometimes I panic, often I shout, I try to ignore it but that often just results in me totally flipping out at someone. I swear it’s getting worse. I shout at work colleagues, family and friends. People just think I’m slightly loopy. It really is getting ridiculous but I have no control over it.
As a long term sufferer – almost 40 years – I’ve recently tried the exposure thing to lessen the effect, but it does the complete opposite – it makes the triggers so much worse. I really have to fight the violent tendencies and stop myself from becoming some weirdo psychotic murderer. At work I forced myself to listen to the slurping and the apple eating and crisp munching, but to no avail. It just wound me up even more. And now I’m developing a new trigger – people talking with food in their mouths. Urgh! Mumble, mumble, chew, mumble. I want to rip their jaws off. This has only manifested in the last month or so, and I know I won’t be able to stop it. But I’m recognising that it’s not just down to the hatred of SOUND, but rather the irritation and annoyance the sound causes to the senses, and I think that is what causes the trigger; that’s the catalyst. The more I heard people talking with their mouths full – and hones in on it – the more I got annoyed by it, and the more I started to dislike the sound. So, the way I see it, exposure to ANY sound that causes irritation or annoyance – or in my case, real anger – can become a trigger, and that in turn leads to the hatred of the sound. In essence, it’s our emotional response – and perception – to these annoyances that turns it into hatred, rather than something going on deep in the brain. I really want to do more research into it.
I have misophonia and came across the term about 3 years ago when I was researching ‘dissociative disorder’ (which I also have). I first saw it described as ‘4S’ – Selective Sound Sensitivity Syndrome and managed to find a couple of things to read. The important thing for me was finding out that what I experience really is ‘a thing’ and others have it too.
I believe there was a cause for my misophonia but I have not so far read of anyone else citing a belief that there was a specific cause for his or hers. I am in my late 40s and my whole life has been shaped by the domestic violence between my parents and from my mother to me and it’s only 18 months ago I finally got the courage to break contact with my mother. The majority of the abuse involved sound in various forms and I have always believed that is why I have misophonia (and depression, anxiety, dissociative disorder and self-injury). I am not aware that the trigger sounds are triggers because they were sounds I heard during a violent attack and it doesn’t feel like a ‘flashback’ (although I have them too). But I believe the abuse caused it, likely by whatever is in the brain not developing the same as if I had been raised in a safe environment. But I don’t know for sure and I could be wrong! I’d love to know!
I was prescribed quetiapine (25mg twice a day) 4 years ago for anxiety. I still react badly to trigger sounds (and some words, images and sensations) and feel the usual terrible panic, aggression and anger, but it is significantly less intense than before the medication.
I discovered the Allergic to Sound website over the weekend when I was trawling through Google trying to find a microwave oven that can have its bleeping muted! Yes, that is one of my triggers! Well, I didn’t find the microwave oven but I am thrilled I found this site. Thank you, Tom, for creating it and filling it with such useful and interesting material.
Hi Tallulah, I’m so sorry to hear that you haven been through that. Well done for finding the courage and strength to break free.
The idea of misophonia being caused/triggered/linked by trauma is a compelling one and I was speaking to someone a couple of years ago (I forget who I’m afraid!) who was looking to do a study into this.
What we do know now, almost beyond question, is that misophonia is a neurological disorder and this was most recently espoused in Dr Kumar’s excellent study.
In other words it is likely that we have this ‘built in’. However, that doesn’t completely rule out the possibility that it’s coming to the fore couldn’t be triggered by a traumatic event.
However just to play devil’s advocate…
– Many people with misophonia (myself included) didn’t suffer from abuse at childhood. That doesn’t of course preclude the idea of there being a different trauma involved (for example an accidental physical injury).
– The majority of trigger sounds seem to be unusually specific and common to misophonia sufferers (lip smacking, sniffing, crunching, slurping etc etc). In other words, if the ‘fight-freeze-flight’ reaction is a learned, Pavlovian response you would expect the triggers created by an abuse or trauma scenario to be more varied.
– Most misophones tend to develop (or at least notice) the condition between the ages of 11 – 13. Potentially it could be argued that what triggers it’s emergence is puberty.
My own personal belief is that with misophonia our senses/processing of sensory information are simply wired up differently, in much as the same way it is with people with synaesthesia. And in this case, instead of processing sounds/certain visuals ‘normally’ we are super sensitive and experience a physiological response.
It’s a really interesting comment Tallulah and definitely something I’d like to explore in more detail.
Hi! I’ve suffered from misophonia for as long as I can remember, but it’s only recently that I’ve discovered that there is a name for my problem – and that I’m not alone, hurrah! Not that I’d wish it on anyone else, but it helps a little.
For me it started with my best friend when I was a little girl, the sound of her eating would make me angry and upset to the point where I stopped wanting to go to her house to play. We eventually stopped being friends. It’s been the same ever since and has resulted in me ending relationships as an adult. My boyfriend whilst I was at university was a lovely guy with a slightly nervous disposition and a habitual sniff. He would sniff when he got anxious and it would send me into a blind rage – and there was only so long I could keep such a strong feeling under wraps. In the end I had to walk away, for his sake as well as mine (I was scared that one day I would totally lose it and whack him!)
I’m now struggling more than ever; my current partner has a clicking jaw and meal times are agonising. Just thinking about it fills me with dread and rage and I’m really not sure how to move forward. Sometimes I lay awake at night thinking about the sound it made when he ate ‘that sandwich’ the day before, and how I simply must break it off with him before the next sandwich episode.
This site is excellent and I’ll read all of its content with interest – but if anyone has any specific advice they can offer then it would be so gratefully received. I feel like I’m fated to live alone in solitude forever!
Many thanks, Jen from Bristol
Hi Jen, thanks for your kind words!
I totally get the clicking jaw one as well (it’s something my partner does when she yawns). Didn’t realise that one was potentially a trigger for others too.
This will sound like a really pants piece of advice, but have you tried having the tele or music on during mealtimes with your partner? Without wanting to sound too melodramatic doing this completely changed my life. It’s something to do with the background noise. It’s not so much that it drowns out the triggers (although that does help) it’s that it causes enough distraction in the brain to help mitigate them. Flood the brian with more sound and visual stimuli (not triggers, obviously!) and it does help. Misophonia is always at it’s most ultra powerful in otherwise quiet environments and there’s someone eating/clicking/banging.
Thank you for putting together a great website for those with Misophonia.
I work in mental health and have been treating individuals for a variety of related psychological trauma. I currently have three people who I have treated with EMDR utilising bilaterial music. It is not a cure but on average it reduces the intensity of the auditory irritation from 8/10 to 2/10. I am aware that the recent research from Newcastle University has confirmed that those with Misophonia have a brain that is slightly different to those that don’t. It is such a shame that this condition is not widely known about although I have come across many professional who refuse to accept it existence. I am going to direct those I see to use your website for information and support.
Again, well done on a great user friendly and informative website.
Hi Cormac, thank you so much for your kind words, much appreciated. I would love to hear more about your work and will drop you a quick email. Hope that’s ok.
Is it genetic? I think it runs in my family. My grandfather, dad, little brother, and I all have it.
This website sums up my life so accurately, I’ve had this for so long and I haven’t told anyone apart from my family and my councillor. I’m way too scared to tell my friends because they’ll think I’m weird like family do. My family don’t understand, they just think I’m selfish and i should learn to “ignore it”. Thank god for earphones and earplugs! When I came across this, i couldn’t stop researching it, I’m so happy I’m not alone! Thank you so much for making this website, I honestly don’t know how I’d cope without it. 🙂
I am very happy to see this website. I have suffered from this as long as I can remember. I have many memories from my childhood where I had to step out of the room or not go to the movie with my family. It is refreshing to find out that I am not alone and that I am not just crazy!
It is very difficult to get people to understand the severity of the problem.
I haven’t yet come up with a way to cope with this, but I look forward to reading everything on this website!
Thanks Vanessa! Great to have you here
I have suffered since about the age of 11 yrs.I am now mid 50s and of late have worried that it was getting worse.Eating/drinking/finger joint/toe cracking/nail flicking all send me into an internal rage where I could happily glass someone in the jugular and watch them bleed out.It does seem worse when it’s a loved one that does it.I have spent the last 45 yrs trying to escape/avoid the triggers thinking I was obviously mad and definitely on my own.I would happily participate in any study but to be honest there would be no point subjecting me to the triggers as I know what the response would be.
I’m just so glad I have never actually done what I felt like I wanted to do as that is not part of who I am.
Keep up the good work.
Thanks Sal! With these studies the aim isn’t just to see what the your conscious response is (they already have evidence of that from lots of other studies over the past 20 years). The main reason is to see and test exactly what’s happening in the brain during a trigger. They use an fMRI scanner to see which areas of the brain are responding to what so that they can work out root causes and hopefully one day treatments.
Hey Tom! Love the stuff you write, and I’ve commented on a few. Regarding the enlightenment when a sufferer of Misophonia realizes they have this disorder that’s called Misophonia, I find that it helps me to say I have Misophonia. I have a friend who definetly has it but they do not claim they do, even though we feel the same about most trigger sounds (there’s no way they don’t have it). I think that everyone with Misophonia has Misophonia, but not everyone decides to have it. I find that for me it made my experience real and notable by people. My siblings completely changed how they acted towards my problem once it was a legitimate thing. Like it wasn’t real until everyone else said it was. Also, saying I have it helps me forget about it. It’s like before I would be triggered and there was something wrong with everyone else even though I knew it was something wrong with me. Now that I have Misophonia, I have my disorder to blame. I’ll be triggered and say to myself, “It’ll be over soon, don’t worry it’s just your disorder”, although some people are just intolerable.Having the disorder to blame makes me less angry towards other people and less upset with myself and more tolerant and sociable with my family and other people I interact with.
Its such a great feeling to know it’s not just me 🙂 For as long as I can remember I seem to be the only one who had this (I’m 49 now) My son however, has it too. The meanest thing is when my work colleagues think it’s funny to annoy me so they emphasise eating, especially apples :/ They literally have no idea how bad it is! I try to describe the feeling and the information on this site is jsut exactly right. Panic, anxiety, fear, rage! So much rage! And how debilitating it is, I for one can’t do anything else until the perpetrator has finished. Thankfully at work I have my earphones and thank god for Youtube with all of it’s ambient sounds like crackling fires, rain, wind, thunderstorms or I’ve recently found brown noise which is fantastic. I basically live for these background noises now. Let’s see – to my side is a sniffer and hot drink slurper, behind me is an apple eater and cougher, on the other side of the petition is a woman who eats so loudly it sounds like a combine harvester plowing through a field of glass DX I laugh now but at the time, woah dear. And in the winter this whole flor sounds like a TB ward. And who is the only person going crazy about any of it? Only me 🙁 So I can’t tell you how it feels to know I’m not alone.
Thanks from the bottom of my irritated and intolerant little heart Tom
Haha, those descriptions made me laugh! Thanks Leanne, you’re very welcome!
I first noticed my hyper sensitivity to sounds when I was about 14. Sitting next to my grandad watching TV when he was eating an apples (which was quite frequently) would literally make me want to cry because I couldn’t stand the sound. It also made me feel really, REALLY irritated! My grandma would complain that grandad sounded like he had a hollow head and they would bicker at each other until said apple had been consumed. I secretly agreed with my grandma but never said anything.
Over the years I’ve compiled a list of sounds that drive me to the point of madness: clicky pens, rattling coins, people whistling, slurping, someone fidgeting with something that makes a continuous noise like flicking something over and over, more than one sound going on at the same time e.g. radio is on AND husband decides to watch something on youtube as well,
I got a beautiful, gorgeous dog 3 years ago and I can’t stand the sound of her drinking water. I literally have to stick my fingers in my ears or I want to cry. Poor doggie doesn’t make me feel mad like most sound sources – just makes me want to cry.
My misophonia has become a LOT worse in recent months. I can’t even listen to music for very long before it starts to irritate me. When my husband listens to music I often have to put wax earbuds in to drown out the irritation.
I’ve been doing more research and it seems neuroscientists at Newcastle University have been studying the condition: they say that certain sounds trigger a response in the part of our brains that is connected with the ‘fight or flight’ response, and this is why we feel rage when we hear certain sounds. It’s a real neurological condition. This is where my recent research started https://www.nytimes.com/2017/02/03/health/sounds-people-hate.html
Thank you Tom for creating a website about this disorder. I only found out myself that it had the same ‘misophonia’ about a year ago! what a relief to know I’m not just a big grouch bag 😀 and that there are other people who have the exact same thing as me 🙂
I believe my first trigger was when my brother and I were playing the trumpet. Aged 13 He would smack his lips when he breathed in. It was just annoying. From there it has just grown. Everything from dogs barking to people chewing, the neighbours music. When we book seats at the theatre I have to get the back ones so no one can kick my seat from behind. Life is hell. What hurts me most is the effect it has on my family as I think they are suffering more than me as I react. Please find a cure someone. I am 61 and only found out 3 years ago that I am not nuts I just have a condition. A life time of mental pain. Thanks to you all for sharing. I feel better for knowing. Andy
“Please find a cure someone.”
Well, maybe I have!
I got what I now realize was very typical symptoms when I was around 15 years old and I am now 51.
It was eating sounds for me and it stayed pretty constant until 3-5 year ago.
But because of other issues, I started what is called “chelation” to get rid of mercury. It is a long story, but the relevant part here is that my misophonia went away.
Will it work for everyone? I have no idea! But it did work for me. So it might be worth looking into, if you have been exposed to mercury (i.e silver fillings).
Hi Expat Viking, that’s a fascinating one. I had two mercury fillings as a child but they were removed and replaced with the white ones a couple of years later (after my mum read a negative article about them). Unfortunately in my case there appears to have been no correlation but it would be really interesting to hear from others.
@ Allergic to Sound,
When (what year) did you get your fillings removed? Do you know if it was done in a safe way?
Removing fillings in a “normal” way, i.e just drilling them out, causes MASSIVE exposure to mercury. I had my own fillings removed like that when I was around 20.
Regarding correlation, it is often very hard to figure that out. When you are exposed to mercury, it gets accumulated in you brain. It does NOT come out just because you remove the source of exposure. It stays there.
But since your fillings are out, it would be uncomplicated for you to try chelation if you like. In my case, it took about 2 year to get rid of misophonia.
You can look up Alpha-Lipoic Acid (ALA) on google. It is a common supplement and if you are ok with taking that, you can chelate.
If you (or others) are interested, I could give you some links. There are many, many people doing this and loads of info.
I’ve read your story and can identify wuth lots of your symptoms. It alone, makes me feel a little better, if nothing else just by knowing that I’m far from being alone.
That’s great David, so glad if it helped in any way. You’re far from being alone!
Literally have had this for years but today it got too much bc this GUy next to me won’t STop chewing gum with his mouth open. I genuinely felt like I was about to get rude it was hard to control. I also noticed that seeing him chew from the corner of my eye also irritated me so much. He’s chewing as I’m writing this so I guess this is also a distraction. He’s breathing so loud at the same time too and my head is getting hot bc I’m getting so angry. Ahhhh what to do. Reading this did help though.
My mom just tried to tell me to just ignore it. It’s not something that can be ignored. It’s not an attention-getter. It’s a real problem.
I have recently discovered that I am affected by the running of a toddler across the floor above me. I never knew that I could feel such rage, but I do. I have found an audiologist near me to get a diagnosis and hopefully treatment, but I am scared of my feelings. Where do I start?
I have suffered with Misophonia since childhood/teenage years but only discovered a few months ago that there was a name for what I was experiencing. I had the “normal” triggers then, eg chewing, sniffing, slurping etc. I now believe that there is a connection to a serotonin imbalance which has plagued me since childhood. When the “depression” symptoms became worse in adulthood and after giving birth, the triggers that really sent me over the edge were bass sounds from neighbours music, in shops and malls etc. The treatment for the serotonin imbalance which I have been on since a complete nervous collapse in 2006, has made me quite severely deaf. I thought at first that this was a blessing as I could generally not hear the usual triggers and could turn my hearing aids off if I could. I can now hear low frequency sounds that normally hearing people cannot hear, whether I am wearing my hearing aids or not. There is presently a noise like a generator that runs in my space most of the day. I have checked all appliances etc and believe that this “sound” is coming from outside somewhere, possibly even at quite a distance and carried through the rock on which my home is built and vibrating in the drywall construction. I have lived in a very quiet home environment for 40 years and now that I am retired, and especially while we are on lockdown, this is where I am 24/7, and this throb that runs for hours every day and night but not all day and night is making me contemplate suicide. I have done all I can to find the origin of the noise without success and the prospect of this agony for the rest of my life is unendurable. I am 68 years old and am desperate.
Thank you so much for all the validation! My family totally doesn’t understand what I feel, I get called crazy a whole lot… I can’t stand hearing specific family members eat, pray, drink, etc., and I know I’ve heard that it’s mostly “mouth noises” that bother people with misophonia. Reading all these other posts, I’ve noticed that correlation as well, yet I do find plenty of non-mouth noises to bother me, such as certain songs (not because they’re annoying), or the sound people make when twirling their hair (yes it makes a noise and yes, I hear it!). I’ve grown up believing that I am crazy, my parents have tried to be accomodating, albeit in a “Lisa’s crazy but we’ll put up with it” kind of manner. I spend most of my days in my bedroom, with earplugs in and a noise machine on.
Thank you for showing me just how many people there are who are going through the same things as me!